No Creativity = Lawyer Depression

It’s winter, most of us can’t get outside much to do stuff, and so we end up pondering things instead. Like, the meaning of your life, and whether your life is anywhere close to where you want it to be. Depressed people often go overboard on this pondering.

Kid art in purple marker

Get in touch with your creative side and smile as broadly as this, er, well whatever it is!

For depressed lawyers, the stakes involved in this pondering can seem very high indeed, if they suspect (or know) that their daily work and life has little meaning for them. The idea of a career change or life change can be deeply frightening, and act like a trigger or a multiplier to an existing depression.

Meaning is one of those things that depressed people usually feel they lack in their lives. “Feelings of worthlessness” is always on those checklists of depression symptoms. A life that feels meaningless, feels worthless.

And while that feeling of a meaningless, worthless life is often the illusion that depression projects, with many lawyers, there’s some hard, cold reality behind it. The objective, logical, detached thinking that law demands often silences that need we have for meaning in our work and lives. Meaning lives in our emotions, not our logic.

What Meaningful Looks Like

Exactly what is meaningful differs for each person. Some of my clients find work more meaningful when they are out in the field working directly with clients or witnesses, rather than in the office enduring conference calls. Others find meaning by communicating an important message well in a brief.

Many lawyers enjoy and find meaning in helping a client achieve a goal that feels worthy to them—keeping someone out of jail, helping an entrepreneur avoid a regulatory quagmire that would have doomed a really super business idea, or vindicating a client whose intellectual property was stolen by a competitor.

If your work doesn’t carry a hefty dose of inherent meaning for you, that lack can be the trigger for depression, rather than the symptom of it. If your work actually violates your values—those things that have the most meaning for you—it’s almost sure to send you into a funk eventually. I see that with my clients consistently. They are unhappy, or depressed, because their work lacks meaning for them.

If you’re depressed but there are existing pieces of your life that hold meaning, that’s a relatively easy fix—find ways to increase the size of those pieces in your work or life. If you find meaning in helping the underdog, add some pro bono work. If you value interacting and collaborating with people, volunteer to do training or mentoring.

(The list of people who need mentoring is endless—less experienced lawyers, homeless or economically disadvantaged people who need basic job searching skills, at-risk youth, and college students trying to find their niche are just a few ideas.)

Sometimes simply cutting back on hours and spending time with family and friends will add the meaning you need to lift your depression.

Ignore Those Creative Urges at Your Peril

Many times, though, it’s the work itself that lacks meaning, no matter how you slice it or try to re-arrange your work life. Particularly when you ignore your creative side, routine legal work will never have enough meaning to combat unhappiness or depression. You just can’t get the ratio of creative: routine/boring/tedious work high enough.

All humans are born with a great capacity for some type of creative work, whether that be problem-solving, designing buildings, developing innovative products or approaches to business, or some type of self-expression such as writing, painting or performance. We tend to see creativity as the making of art, but it’s much more than that. It’s seeing old problems with a new set of eyes, of wondering “What if we tried doing this in a different way . . .? What could make this better . . . ?”

Law, in contrast, values applying the same old solutions to new problems. That’s the DNA of law. For those with a creative bent, that DNA can feel like a death knell to meaning in their lives.

Lawyers whose creative gifts are centered around problem-solving will find it easier to add meaning to their work life in law, but lawyers whose creative gifts revolves around self-expression or making new things will have a hard slog of it. The greater your creative gifts, the harder it is to endure work without creative meaning. Your soul protests vehemently and doesn’t really care about what society thinks about stable, large paychecks.

What does that vehement protest look like? Often, depression. I don’t for a moment think that every depressed lawyer is a blocked creative—but many are, if my clients are any indication. Once they start getting in touch with that creativity, their lives go from stuck to moving and then to amazing. When they start adding things that have deep meaning for them—creating in some form—their depression often lifts or lessens markedly.

The hardest thing, as anyone who suffers from depression knows, is getting started. So start small. Add meaning in tablespoons, and suddenly you will find it in your life by the gallon.

Here are a few ways you could start to add meaning to your life:

  • Build something. If you find meaning in problem-solving, get some Legos and figure out how to build a tree, a piano or whatever appeals to you. (Legos, incidentally, are now way cool. There are Harry Potter and Star Wars Lego sets, among many other brilliant ones. You could start with a kit and go from there. If you live in a city where there’s a Lego store, go and pick up lots of random pieces like doors, windows, and curves.)
  • Add beauty. If you find meaning in beauty, add some to your life. Put some art on the walls, or find a lovely object you can put on your desk or a bookshelf you look at daily. You could even get some pretty paper and craft some origami. A pretty scarf or unusual tie could add a big lift to your life. Even colorful or unusual office supplies can boost your creative spirit.
  • Play with clay. If making something new holds meaning for you, get some polymer clay—sold as Sculpey or Fimo, and comes in a cacophony of colors plus metallics and glittery versions—and make a coaster. Or make some worry beads. Or whatever else appeals. If you can’t seem to create something for yourself, then do it for a child. Children love presents, period, and they’ll love that you made something just for them.
  • Practice kindness. If kindness and compassion top the meaning scale for you, start slipping a few dollars to a homeless person regularly. Or volunteer monthly at a soup kitchen. Or make it a practice to smile and greet people who look like they’re having a bad day.

Adding meaning to your life can be a lot cheaper than therapy and medication, and have some profound effects. Living a meaningful life can be a powerful part of your arsenal in fighting depression. And the downside? I can’t think of one.

A version of this article first appeared on http://lawyerswithdepression.wordpress.com/.

Jennifer Alvey is a recovering lawyer who practiced law at 3 firms before she finally, at law firm #3, began developing her creative talents. Her life has been much better since. She offers discounted sample coaching sessions to attorneys who want to explore their creativity but don’t know how to get started. She can be reached at jalvey@jenniferalvey.com.

4 thoughts on “No Creativity = Lawyer Depression

  1. Thanks Jennifer–this is a wonderfully-written article that expresses exactly how I feel inside. This blog is fantastic–thanks again!

  2. Thanks Jennifer,

    You really hit the nail on the head!! It’s no wonder, that I’m an attorney, actor and trained hypnotherapist.

  3. Jennifer… this helpful, beautiful, and refreshing.

    Lawyers get a pretty bad rap from what I can tell, but who wouldn’t be disliked if they’d shut-off their right-brained, meaningful, creative-loving side for ‘work’?

    I love that you teach a different way and encourage others.

    This was my fave paragraph: Meaning is one of those things that depressed people usually feel they lack in their lives. “Feelings of worthlessness” is always on those checklists of depression symptoms. A life that feels meaningless, feels worthless

    I know this post is older and I’m late to contribute, but hopefully this encourages someone to a) treat lawyers as human beings or b) be a more creative lawyer 🙂

    Keep ryzin’!

  4. I enjoyed your post about creativity and lawyers. There are periods when I wonder whether I am really contributing to my clients’ business in any meaningful way, seeing as most of our conversations are about what they can’t or shouldn’t do. During these times, I can feel the cynicism creeping in. Despite this, I have believed (still do…somewhat) that there is a way to practice law creatively, to become an enabler rather than a wet blanket. This requires years of experience, thorough knowledge of the law and regulators, in depth understanding of your client, good business sense, and good communication skills. It also requires the lawyer to have a courageous mindset which is not averse to new ways of doing things. In many ways, I think the last of these is the biggest hurdle, because to acquire the other skills, you have to go through years in risk-averse environments whose diametrically-opposite values you end up absorbing. Plus the specter of a professional negligence suit is a great way to dull anyone’s sense of creativity.

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