I just spent a week teaching art camp to children between 6 and 11. We did some super-cool projects, and the kids got to do real art. As in, the non-Pinterest Perfect kind, with room for experimentation and failure, and the kids’ own brand of creativity. No one’s projects came out looking alike. It was all the things I love to teach about creativity.

But by the end of it, I was a an exhausted, irritable, impatient mess.

How can that be? you’re probably thinking. She’s doing something she loves and believes in. And, what does any of this possibly have to do with being miserable in law?

Only everything, grasshopper.

What’s in a Personality?

Let’s start with some personality basics. I’m an introvert, like 3/4 of lawyers. Introverts not only process life primarily in their heads, they also get overstimulated and thus overwhelmed by constant noise and action. When you’re dealing with a bunch of 7 year-old boys, trust me, the noise and action are non-stop. Every year, I walk away from this art camp in awe of pre-school to 2nd grade teachers, who every work day step into what feels to me like chaos. I could never, ever do their job and expect to stay out of the looney bin.

Bolting the wrong job to your personality feels even more uncomfortable than walking around with staples in your skin.
Bolting the wrong job to your personality feels even more uncomfortable than walking around with staples in your skin.

So if you’re an introvert and in a job that demands regular, sustained interaction with others, you’re going to feel stressed. Ditto if you are subject to constant interruptions. While it may not be 7 year-olds whining. asking for help or acting out, you may get constantly pinged by emails, texts, phone calls, or even actual humans appearing in your office. This creates a lot of stress, because you just can’t finish a thought or a project. It’s very stressful to many introverts.

On the other hand, if you’re an extravert and work constantly behind the computer, and don’t have much interaction with others, you will feel equally stressed and out of sorts. Lack of stimulation can be a very serious problem for extraverts, particularly if they’re in law. It can make them feel flat and depressed. Moreover, extraverts tend to be misunderstood in law. Their need to process out loud can be viewed as irritating, and as wasting their colleagues’ time.

Either way, being in an environment that pushes you way past your default personality traits can make you hostilejudgmental, anxious, brittle and impatient. I observed myself acting in all these unpleasant ways, and more, last week.

The Slippery Slide into Darkness

Even though I knew better, I let myself slide on some key things that I usually do to keep myself balanced and resilient.

  • I didn’t give myself enough quiet time in the mornings. While 20 minutes daily can do if everything else is perking along in my life, I need more time, like 40 minutes, when things are feeling chaotic and stressful.
  • I didn’t write. Writing is where I am often in flow for a long period of time, and not having that is a recipe for making me not like being around myself.
  • I didn’t garden. Gardening soothes my nerves in a big way. It gets me outside and connected to nature and miracles.
  • I didn’t walk. As much as I hate the truth of it, I need to walk in the mornings, at least twice weekly.

Part of the reason I didn’t do any of these things, despite knowing that they help keep me function, is because I was also juggling getting my son to his camp, plus of course clients. Even though I cut back on the number of sessions for the week, I was still stretched pretty thin emotionally and logistically.

The one thing I did do was give myself time for a nap each afternoon, because I knew I would be a yet more irritable, impatient, and unpleasant person if I didn’t get extra rest. Overstimulation is really physically exhausting.

In the end, I needed to crawl in a hole for about 2 days to recover. And that was after just 5 days of fighting against my type defaults, for a few hours a day. I know that many of you endure far more than that, month after month. In fact, I felt far too much like that unpleasant person I often was when I practiced law. There’s a reason you’re feeling depressed, stressed and hopeless.

Environment Matters as Much as Purpose

The lesson here for unhappy lawyers? When you’re looking to change jobs, whether it’s in law or outside it altogether, pay attention to what you actually need in your work environment. Make sure you understand the various aspects of your Myers-Briggs type.

  • How much stimulation you can stand or how much you must have (the Introvert/Extravert dimension);
  • Whether your job will require lots of forest thinking (iNtuitive) or trees thinking (Sensing), and which one you need to feel fulfilled;
  • Whether your job requires use of empathy and values to make decisions (Feeler) or logic and adherence to rules and order (Thinker); and
  • How much structure and organization the job expects. Is the expectation that to-do list boxes need to get checked off frequently and planning is important (Judgers love this), or that you need to be able to go with the flow and make it up as you go along (Perceivers’ heaven).

You can find the job that aligns really well with your purpose and gives your life meaning, but if the daily environment doesn’t match your personality needs, you’ll end up stressed and possibly confused about why.

As you search for your next job, remember that you make better decisions if you are more balanced. Figure out what your non-negotiables are that keep you fairly functional, and stick to them like a barnacle.

Not sure what your MBTI is? You can find some pretty good free tests online. Two I like at the moment are  http://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test and http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp. I suggest taking two or three different ones, to see if you get the same type. Or, you could take a paid version, which is likely a bit more accurate. (mbticomplete.com is one) Again, there are many options online for that.

Want more in-depth discussion of attorneys and MBTI? Check out my series of posts I wrote on that a while back, starting with  More on the Lawyer Personality.

And if you still need help sorting through the lawyer personality stuff, I’m just an email away.

Jennifer Alvey is a recovering lawyer who finally started paying attention to what her INFP type meant after 8 long years in law. Her life and career got a lot better and happier after that. You can schedule a discounted sample career coaching session with Jennifer by emailing her at jalvey@jenniferalvey.com.